Reasons to think of you

because the rain refuses to stop and because it is warm in my bed, because that picture haunts me every time i pull back the curtain, because it was night and i had nothing to do. because it starts with a letter and has a name, because i eat alone familiar things, because if i did not, i would not be me.  because i understand what happened, and because i don't. because i hate filling this room with words spoken at no one and because i tire of filling acquaintances with polite bypassing, because times used to be good and because memories are still too good. but most of all. because it is you, and i do not know how not to.