Home(coming)leaving

On days leading to farewell
somewhere begins a small ache
Confused in origin and purpose,
unknowing of whether it is leaving
or what is left behind
or rather where I am going
that causes a stifling of a regret
or maybe even sadness.

I would much rather say
long time no see
than see you, because its inadequacy
to express the weight of going.
Such small words
for such long waits.

And at what juncture
is it appropriate to admit
the depth of emotion
that comes with homecoming
and leaving?

It means everything
that you remember
and make time
for someone
who is rarely there.

I take my leave once more
not knowing whether
I am coming
or going
but knowing
home -
is never too far away.